Wednesday, December 28, 2005
the thing below wasnt frm me. haha disclaimer.
no mood to type
i found a diamond
at 12:00 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
i miss secondary school, big time. so much i wanna beg moe to let me retain in secondary school. i got posted to some top five jc yes but come jan 3rd, id rather be back in secondary school. i didnt like jc today, with all the boys. disgusting. not to mention, boys from chinese schools in the east. hella. fucking disgusting.
my first day in my jc today. i didnt like the people around. the majority; people from chinese schs in the east. not forgetting, ah lians wearing this facial expression. somehow tells me
hey im the one who takes photos of myself, me me me with my camera phone. yes me myself and just me, you know youve got the glum expression, the angry one, the cute one and the pretty one! you want to see? no leave me alone HAHA. everyone speaks chinese. sigh
i was in the audi. some fucked up people were telling their friends.
saw this person on friendster lehh. look so familiar. and she was wearing this uniform, must be her lahh PLEASE. i bet wanking or something else is surely more interesting than friendster surfing. and i dont fucking know you so leave me alone? get somehting to do larh assholes. i dont wanna be your schoolmate. please. send your appeals to every other jc if youre so free. just get outta ______
SUCKERS
i found a diamond
at 11:46 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005
on a monday 4am
i was thinking of.....
i found a diamond
at 4:03 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
yes, i cant slp coz im too full. tts y im back to self-entertain.
after all the yamseng yamseng, eating and angpao collecting, a wedding dinner has become(or may well have always been) more of a traditional must-do than a celebration of love. the screenings of young-to-adult photos of the couples, usage of romantic sappy love songs as background music and the champagne pouring no longer pull any of my emotional strings anymore. what makes the experience worse was the female emcee READING DIRECTLY from her script tt is held in her hands for all to see. tell me abt bad hosting man...
steam ran out again..
i found a diamond
at 1:02 AM
went for darren's wedding dinner today...
it is in fact the -first- wedding dinner tt i went to, without my family's company.
and the second that i've been to in a period of a month. food was great, ambience was good, and got to meet steven's sot sot gf. she's quite pretty but there's just something about her that bothers me a great deal. the unnatural smile she gives me from time to time, forcing me to seemingly reciprocate the politeness by smiling back. it would also haf been a better experience if chiok wasn't there to talk non-stop. steven's gf was literally bored to death by his constant rantings tt her eyes turned all red and teary mid-way thru the dinner. regimentation was in the air tho; no one dare to eat first until chiok picks up his chopsticks. ppl may well say this is called
zun jing zhang bei, but to me, i tink they more scared of getting backstabbed in camp ba.. when u're past the training days and u step into the management level of army, it turns out that the WOSEs(these are the ppl i work with) transform into mini-politicians, each weaving their own scheme of plans and transmitting their thoughts(perhaps twisted ones) during smoking sessions, and coming up with 'great' philosophies that justifies their way of action. but most of them do not realise that the main reason the
others are listening is nt coz they are interested in their bullshit. its coz they haf to
ying chou their superiors so as to make their working experience a more pleasant one. has it never crossed these 'commanders' minds that the NSFs, the 'men' as they like to call us, are no lesser beings than them? a few yrs down the road i may well be earning multiples of qm's or my encik's salary. they do not realise that the authority for them to tekan is nt coz of their leadership, but coz its a
given. sure, u may have been in the organisation for 10 times my NS liability, but is ur iq higher than mine? how about ur eq? ur studies? ur leadership and achievements? experience may be something precious, but youth and gift from God(or whichever superior being, pardon me) is worth more and ought to be respected.
digressed too much. anyway, after the somewhat enjoyable dinner, i walked home 40 bucks poorer. and back into my newly-furnished room. and agnes is telling me abt what xmas present she should be getting. some smart-ass once said that to receive is a
xinfu, but i dont feel any happiness from the fact that
she is getting me a present. perhaps its just her to prepare bdae presents for all her friends(which makes me an even bigger loser), or perhaps she....hahahaa fat hope on my side man...ive done things too bad and to request something that would make me happy, is to request a treatment im not worthy of anymore. this has troubled me to the point that on some nights, i will just go crazy thinking of the answers to the various doubts left behind by those melodramatic events. literally crazy. i could juz clutch my head and flip around in bed and go 'why why why' and then the occasional spasms will kick in. sounds crazy? maybe im mentally ill?
i found a diamond
at 12:23 AM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
so im supposed to write 5 unique stuff abt miself
but there reali isnt anithing?
1) i can put my leg behind my neck..used to be able to put both and let them stay there for as long as i liked..guessed i got abit in-flexible or sth..its freaky tho
2) ima green veggie hater
3) i get mentally unstable from time to time..asin those psychotics u see in movies..im not far frm them. ill get violent so stay away from me
4) i tend to leave the best for the last when im eating. so if there's veggie ill jz stack them like a tower and finish them in 1 mouth
5) i dun smile in 99% of the photos i take
lame...hahaha
i found a diamond
at 10:53 PM
